I have so much going on in my head. I need to be doing Spanish right now. I was cleaning my room but I got bored and distracted. Zarek is acting weird today. I feel like he's bored with me. My life feels like nothing. I don't want to talk to my dad. I want to see my mom. I feel like no one understands me. I am lonely. I am broken. I am breaking. I am sorry. I am not sorry at all. I will explode. I will implode. What's the point anymore? How do I fix this? How do I live? Why can't I be like everyone else? Why do I have to have this strange mental issue? Do I actually have a mental illness? Have I always been depressed? I think I have. But have I really? Will I ever be good enough for anybody? Will I ever end up with someone who truly loves me? Will I be able to truly love them back? Do I know how to love? Do I know anything at all? Am I going crazy? Am I actually this bad at living life? Or are they being overly dramatic? Am I being overly dramatic? Will I ever know who I am?
Is it all in my head?