"Happy" song from Despicable Me 2 and then some...

This is one of the new songs that Pharrell wrote for Despicable Me 2. This is why I love him. He is so talented, but then I get disappointed when I come across some mainstream whatever song. I still listen to whatever he does because I am always curious about what he can come up with and I usually sit and wait for something like this. It's light, I can listen to it and actually feel happy and it makes me want to dance. I have much faith in his music career because he still has it and he's been around for quite some time. I'll never give up on you, P!

Mhm :)

Okay, P, just gimme a sec-

Psh, calm DAY-OWN crazy.

But really though, I love this man for his mind and his music... and his body. Gorgeous man, he is.

And N*E*R*D needs to put out another album. I demand it!

Dear John

I feel like my decision was the best for both of us. I know you're angry with me, John, but I am hoping that you will process it all and receive closure from it. We just ended up in a situation that we shouldn't have. I will always believe God had us meet for a reason. There are so many underlying messages to it all. I've been struggling with a lot of things that I have been trying to suppress and being in a romantic relationship with someone I barely know and who barely knows me will not help me fix what needs to be fixed. I can tell that you have some things to deal with on your own. My problems are not your responsibility nor are yours mine. We both cannot take so much build up of hurt and pain in our lives. I wanted to be here to at least support you in all of this and I didn't mind you helping me out a bit, but we were going about it the wrong way.

It upsets me that you would call my method of letting out my feelings "insensitive." I know myself well enough that if we were to talk over Skype about all of this, I wouldn't be able to get a word in because of how much you would be talking. That sounds kind of harsh, but you said so yourself that you talk a lot. That drained me like no other. I felt controlled by your feelings and your reactions to things I was able to say to you. You seemed to always take them the wrong way. When you told me that you wanted to be open with me without upsetting me. And when I said that you needed me more than I need you, I meant that. Now that I think about it, it's very much the truth. You took it as me saying you are "needy" and indeed you are. I cannot be your security blanket. I'm sorry that what I said may have seemed insensitive but my intentions were to be honest and that's exactly what you wanted from me. You were telling me that people of this world didn't want to know the truth and you are one of those people when you said you weren't. The truth may hurt, but you have to live with it.

I will continue to pray for you and hope the best for you. You need it because your life has been full of one hurt after another and I am sorry that I had to be one of those people to hurt you. From the very beginning, I didn't want it to happen and you were optimistic about it. You were so sure that I wouldn't, and in the end I did. Please focus on your own health, don't stress about everything in life so much. Take your anxiety medicine and take care of your heart. I'm hoping that things in your life get better and you find someone that can provide you with the love you need and I hope you can do the same for them. I know you have a lot of love in you, just as you said to me. You do, but you have a lot of hurt seeping from the cracks within your happiness. Keep your eyes and thoughts on God. He loves you very much and I am so content in knowing that he put us together to be able to better ourselves separately. I thank Him for showing me the truth about myself and that I could help you out along the way.

Please open your eyes to our situation, that's all I ask. Take some time, take a good breather. Build your relationship with God.

With all my heart,
Candice

"Either way, I'll break your heart someday, but leaving you is the last thing on my mind."

I truly am sorry if I really hurt you. I guess I jumped into it too quickly with you and that was stupid of me. Not stupid as in getting to know you, but stupid as in I should have said no in the first place and gotten to know you even more. I feel silly for causing this whole mess. I also felt like I kept messing up in your eyes. I understand you speak your mind, and I like that but I don't know... what was I doing wrong? Talking to your friends that you promote so much? They're really awesome, too, so I was interacting with them, being friendly. But the way it seemed was I am too friendly. And I suppose maybe you're right. I am still so lost on how to fix it or what you want me to do. I also don't want you to lose those awesome friends of yours and honestly, they're more important for you than I am. I want YOU to be happy. And I don't think I can be that person for you. I'm not going to stop supporting you or your friends because you guys are AMAZING, but I'll just interact less if that's what I must do.

I just need to get my own life together before I start one with someone. I am barely learning to take care of myself, I don't know if I can be in a relationship until the time is right. I definitely have a lot more things to experience and I don't want you to waste your time on me if I'm not going to be fully dedicated to you. I don't know how to make you feel more important than everyone else which I guess is most definitely the problem. It felt like I should have just stopped interacting with people but how can I do that if I'm just getting to know everyone?

I don't know how to feel about this except maybe upset and frustrated and like the bad guy.

Today is just not a good day.