"Either way, I'll break your heart someday, but leaving you is the last thing on my mind."

I truly am sorry if I really hurt you. I guess I jumped into it too quickly with you and that was stupid of me. Not stupid as in getting to know you, but stupid as in I should have said no in the first place and gotten to know you even more. I feel silly for causing this whole mess. I also felt like I kept messing up in your eyes. I understand you speak your mind, and I like that but I don't know... what was I doing wrong? Talking to your friends that you promote so much? They're really awesome, too, so I was interacting with them, being friendly. But the way it seemed was I am too friendly. And I suppose maybe you're right. I am still so lost on how to fix it or what you want me to do. I also don't want you to lose those awesome friends of yours and honestly, they're more important for you than I am. I want YOU to be happy. And I don't think I can be that person for you. I'm not going to stop supporting you or your friends because you guys are AMAZING, but I'll just interact less if that's what I must do.

I just need to get my own life together before I start one with someone. I am barely learning to take care of myself, I don't know if I can be in a relationship until the time is right. I definitely have a lot more things to experience and I don't want you to waste your time on me if I'm not going to be fully dedicated to you. I don't know how to make you feel more important than everyone else which I guess is most definitely the problem. It felt like I should have just stopped interacting with people but how can I do that if I'm just getting to know everyone?

I don't know how to feel about this except maybe upset and frustrated and like the bad guy.

Today is just not a good day.